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Obedience
We are dependent people that cannot truly think and make decisions for ourselves. As children, we obeyed our parents. As adults, we follow our leaders and vote for those we believe will govern fairly. But how can we make such a judgment? We listen to what they say and vote for those we believe will be just and true leaders. Too many, though, once elected turn out to be very poor leaders. We see that they do not do as they promised at all. Many turn out to be blatant liars and some are truly evil. They lie without any concern for truth. Many even openly admit their utter lack of respect for honesty. How can we continue to live as free people with such leaders?
Truly, we cannot continue to live as free people in such a putrid environment. There must be honesty in our hearts and our words or our civilization falls apart. Without honesty, the strong govern the weak to their own advantage and a once-free people are in effect enslaved.
How can this be avoided? How can a people be free and still live together without the strong governing and exploiting the weak? It is only possible when there is a benevolent super-strong agency that effectively governs everyone. Historically, this agency has been God. When people believe in God and obey His Commandments, they love one another and live peacefully together.
Obedience to God’s ten commandments is the minimum requirement for true peace on earth. When all or nearly all obey there is peace and much prosperity. When none or very few obey there is chaos and confusion. The strong rule over and eventually make servants and then slaves of the weak. When this becomes or is seen as oppression, the weak revolt and overthrow them for a time. But it doesn’t last long. The next generation forgets God and the cycle repeats over and over again.
We have never seen the extremes but have of late moved further and further toward neglect followed by open disobedience of God’s Commandments. We are following the path of ancient Israel and it seems we just can’t learn any other way. Why? Why is this so? Why can’t we learn from our mistakes? Js it because we grow lazy when things go well and fail to obey every word of God? Yes, but what is the underlying cause? Is it because we fail to fully obey even when we repent and return to God? Is it because we never really and truly fully obey God?
Is our continual failure a consequence of our dependence on our churches? Is going to church insufficient? Yes, it is most truly insufficient! There is no room for a clergy class in God’s plan for the development of God’s people. It is an invention that shifts the burden of responsibility from the individual to the clergy. There was no clergy class in the early Christian communities. These communities, of perhaps 10 – 12 families each, were on their own most of the time. The burden of teaching rested on every believer. Elders taught the entire community but everyone had someone he or she could and should teach.
God intends that every believer be a teacher, one that studies His Word diligently and teaches others whenever there is an opportunity. Why then do so few teach? It is because God’s people have neglected their earlier practice of serious Bible study and have grown so weak that Satan could deceive them with what should have been an obvious lie, a lie that says God changed His mind, an utter impossibility. God knows the end from the beginning and never needs to change His mind (Malachi 3:6).
Purpose
Why are we here? Why are there so many people and so many other forms of living beings in this world? Why are there any living things at all? How can such questions be answered? Clearly, they cannot be answered by anyone in this world. The only one that can answer is the One that created and sustains it, the almighty God.
This Creator God expressed Himself through a book He caused to be written by His servant Moses, His prophets, and His apostles. This book we call the Bible is God’s Word to His intelligent creatures. It informs them of who they are, how they got where they are today, and what their responsibilities to their Creator are. This divinely inspired book tells them that they were put here for a purpose and have work to do.
He is a loving God and has promised to give His creatures all the help they need if they reject the gods of this world and believe, trust and obey Him. No one does this on their own but God sends the Holy Spirit to indwell all those He chose in eternity past. The Spirit within frees the person from Satan’s bondage and he js now a new creature, a new person in Christ. He will never die but, when his time on earth comes to an end, will simply exchange his present body for a gloriously new and heavenly body.
Sadly, many Christians, instead of believing God, believed a lie that His enemy Satan concocted. The lie says that God changed His mind, an utter impossibility, but many foolish Christians were taken in by it. They neglected the personal study of God’s Word and relied on a once a week sermon as the total extent of their Bible study. This is grossly insufficient. Diligent Bible study and discussion with peers several hours per week is needed to gain a true understanding of one’s responsibility toward God.
What did God give His chosen people and what does He ask and expect of them. He gave all His chosen ones the huge gift of eternal life in heaven and requires nothing, absolutely nothing in return. He asks them, merely asks mind you, to spread the good news of this huge free gift to others. This is the request God makes of every true believer. It is so little in comparison with the gift of eternal life in heaven.
It would seem that this task would be seen as a very high priority for all God’s people, one that they would pursue diligently. When they begin to do so with sufficient diligence, the world will begin to change and God’s purposes will begin to take shape. The world will move ever more rapidly toward becoming what it will be one day, a truly God-fearing world.
Many of God’s people today have been deceived by Satan’s lies and believe that the end of the world is near. They cannot see through Satan’s lies because they have not studied God’s Word as the early Christians did. They have trusted to their pastor’s sermons and failed to come to a sufficient understanding of God’s Word for themselves.
It is not God’s purpose that His people be so weak and so easily deceived by the lies contained in Satan’s book, the Scofield Bible. Its lies are not in the King James Bible itself, but in Scofield’s notes that grossly distort the true meaning of God’s Word.
God’s purpose is that the entire world hears and is converted to the true Christian faith. The responsibility to do this rests, not with a clergy class, but with all God’s people as individuals. It cannot be limited to attending a weekly sermon or occasional witnessing. It requires active participation on the part of all God’s people in the spreading of this good news to the world around them.
One day, the entire world will be converted to the true faith. Every person in every nation will have become a truly born-again believer and Jesus will return to a truly Christian world. Then comes the end: the dead in Christ will rise first and meet the Lord in the air. All the faithful will be caught up to a final heavenly home. This world, having served all its purposes, will be destroyed and be no more.
Where, dear reader do you stand relative to this future? Are you a truly born-again child of God that will view these events from heaven? If not, if you have not been born-again and really and truly placed all your trust in Christ, there is still time to rectify that sorry situation. Don’t delay though, there are very few true death-bed conversions.
If you have been born again, there is much work to do. There is a world to conquer for Christ! Will you do your part?
Origins
What is the origin of the many forms of life we see in this world? Where did we come from? Some supposedly wise men say we evolved very gradually from the very simplest form of life. One problem with this is that there are no truly simple forms of life. The simplest form of life is not simple. It has all the complexity required to survive and reproduce itself in a hostile world.
The only answer to all the different forms of life we see around us today is the answer the Bible gives us. There is a being that always existed and that created not only this world but all things that exist anywhere and everywhere in the universe. He created the billions of stars, solar systems and all things in them.
God created this world and all things it. He created man in His image from the dust of the earth. He named him Adam (earth-born) and gave him control over all the world.
This God made Himself known to us, first through a man named Moses, then through His prophets, and finally through His Son Jesus Christ. Jesus became a man, was born of a woman, lived a perfect, sinless life and then died for everyone that truly believes in Him. He, the only sinless person that ever lived on earth, died for His own sinful creatures. The innocent One died for the guilty. His sacrifice paid the sin-debt in full for all that truly believe in Him.
How many, though, actually believed? The answer is none at all! Not one person that ever lived believed on their own! All, every person that ever lived, rejected the atoning sacrifice of Jesus Christ! All were so deeply enmeshed in Satan’s tremendous power that they could not even lift a finger or say a word to help themselves. It was only after God sent the Holy Spirit to indwell all those, He chose in eternity past that anyone was able to believe in and choose God.
All things, even the faith to believe in Him, js not our own. It is the gift of God:
For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them. (Ephesians 2;8-10)
God’s Word is very clear here: even the faith to believe in God’s free salvation is not our own. It is a gift from God! When Adam, our original ancestor sinned, all his descendants sinned in him. As a result, we were all born in sin and are Satan’s captives until God gives us this gift of faith. It is God’s action and not the individual’s own choice that saves.
Dear reader, has God chosen you, or do you believe you chose Him on your own? If it’s the latter, if you think you made the decision without God’s help, then your salvation is in question. Did your life change, really change since then? If you can’t see a truly fundamental change of direction at that point, you may be deceiving yourself.
If this uncertainty describes you, don’t despair. Where there is life, there is hope. God always answers a sincere prayer, late though it may be. Don’t delay though; give your life to God now! There are very few true and sincere death-bed confessions of faith.
Born Again
What can it mean? How can a person be born again? Here’s Jesus’ answer to that question:
“There was a man of the Pharisees, named Nicodemus, a ruler of the Jews: The same came to Jesus by night, and said unto him, Rabbi, we know that thou art a teacher come from God: for no man can do these miracles that thou doest, except God be with him. Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God. Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother’s womb, and be born? Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God. 6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit. Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again.” (John 3:1-7)
Jesus tells us here that there are two kinds of births, the physical and the spiritual. We all understand physical birth but what is this spiritual birth? Jesus tells us here that without it we cannot even see the kingdom of God, much less ever enter it.
What and where is this kingdom that cannot even be seen without undergoing a second birth, whatever that is? Jesus says it is a spiritual birth but what is that? Is it just a change of one’s mind or is it something more? Everyone is born with a spirit within us that makes us different from a dead body that has no spirit. Does that spirit die when we die or does it continue to live in another realm, one we cannot see?
Jesus tells Nicodemus here that this spiritual birth occurs after the first birth and implies that not everyone experiences it. So, the world is populated by two kinds of people, those born twice and those born only once, those with and those without this spiritual second birth. This is a very different world from what our school teachers teach our children today.
Which is correct? Is it what we were taught a few decades ago or what is being taught today? They are two very different stories. Which story is true and which is false and how do we decide? Is the Bible true or is it just a set of fairy tales that somebody made up a long time ago? It tells us that we were created by a Being that always existed and always will exist. It tells us that He created everything that exists and gives life to all that live.
This is far more reasonable than the idea that all the life we see around us, this complex world full of living beings, just sprang into existence accidentally. Yes, the Bible is the Word of the Creator God. It is true though every man is a liar.
There is a life that follows this life. Jesus told Nicodemus and God tells us today that there are two and only two possible destinations for us after we leave this life. It is heaven for all that have been born again and Hell for all that have only been born once.
To which group, dear reader, do you belong? Have you been Born Again? Will you spend eternity in Heaven with God’s people or in Hell with the lost? If you’re not totally certain that it is the former, it is the latter terrible end you will suffer. But while there is life there is hope but don’t delay. There are very few true and many false death-bed repentances.
The Great Commission
God is merciful, full of mercy toward all His creatures. He extends His love to all without exception. He awards all that in true sincerity ask for the greatest of all possible gifts, eternal life in Paradise. What is our response to it? Incredibly, everyone, the entire population of the world rejects this, the greatest of all possible offers. Why? How is this possible? Everyone loves life and would gladly receive with great joy the ability to live forever. The gift is refused because everyone is in bondage to Satan and cannot lift a finger to resist his will.
The God that controls all things in Heaven and earth knew from eternity past that His creature Adam would sin and disobey Him. He knew and prepared a way to rescue his descendants from the doom of eternal punishment they earned through their sinful disobedience. God sent His Son, the second person of the Holy Trinity, to become a man, a creature, and die on a cross for the sins of all that believe in Him.
God, the Son commissioned His disciples to spread the good news of this free salvation throughout the world. His last words to His disciples were:
And Jesus came and spake unto them, saying, All power is given unto me in heaven and in earth. Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen. (Matthew 28:18-20)
These were His instructions to all His disciples, both then and now. We, as the beneficiaries of God’s great grace, are asked, only asked mind you, not commanded, to spread the good news of God’s free salvation.
How many, though, actually do this? How many remain silent and why do they do so? It is because they, themselves do not really believe. They want to believe and belong but do not because they are not and never have been God’s true children. They may have been impressed by a sermon and responded to an altar call but were never truly born again. The idea of being born again might have appealed to them once but does no longer.
Without faith, it is impossible to please God, and faith itself is a gift God gives to those He chose in eternity past.
“For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.” (Ephesians 2:8-10)
We know we have received God’s gift of faith when we see within ourselves a deep desire to believe in Him and obey Him. We communicate this God-given free gift to everyone we can, all that will listen and pay attention.
There are actually two gifts here, the gift of eternal life and the gift of faith. Both are gifts from God. No one chooses on his own to believe. Many jump to the wrong conclusion here by thinking that they made the choice to believe on their own. They fail to recognize the extent to which they were in bondage to Satan and totally incapable of choosing God. Yes God does it all. He gives us both the gift of life and the gift of faith. Praise GOD! All is from Him and to Him and through Him.
God Is Patient
When! When is it coming? How much longer must we wait for God to rapture His people out of this evil world? The world gets more and more evil day after day and still no rapture. We thought it was imminent a half-century ago when Israel was restored to the Jews but nothing yet.
God has great patience you say and His time is always the perfect time. Yes, but did we get the correct story in our churches? Were our pastors and theologians mistaken somehow? Was the restoration of Israel not really the so very significant milestone we were told it was?
If we were so very wrong about this, where else might we be wrong? Would God really rapture the few true believers in the world today and send the rest of the world to Hell for all eternity? Isn’t God a God that loves His creatures? Is His patience really so limited that He can’t wait any longer? Doesn’t God have infinite patience?
There was a time when almost all God’s people believed that the world would one day be a truly Christian world, a world in which everyone you met was a true born-again believer. Where did that hope go? When and how did we lose it?
I remember! It began with the so very popular Scofield Bible, the Bible with Scofield’s notes that explained the meaning of the biblical text. Many of us may remember it from a time when we sat at our mother’s knee and she read God’s Word to us.
It was not the Bible at all. It was Scofield’s notes that taught us to see God’s plan in a new and very different light. He was no longer a God that never changed His mind, One that had infinite patience. According to Scofield, God changed His mind (and how He relates to us) at least seven times in history.
How in the world did this ever happen? How were we so utterly deceived by this evil man’s evil book? It was because we were so very weak, so very lacking in our knowledge of Scripture. We had become dependent on our pastors and could not understand God’s Word without their help.
How did we let this happen to us? How did we become so weak and so dependent on these utterly incompetent pastors? Very simply, we failed to obey God and study His Word on our own in small groups. Instead, we relied on others, supposedly well trained, godly men; but they led us far away from God’s truth.
What we must do to correct this deplorable situation is to reject these godless churches and begin to study God’s Word on our own. We need to form small groups of believing families that meet together regularly to learn for ourselves. This is what the early Christians did before there were any churches. They could hear an apostle speak perhaps once or twice in a year but were on their own most of the time. They studied God’s Word the only way they could, in small groups that hid from Rome’s rulers.
We need to emulate the early Christians and abandon these faithless churches and mega-churches we attend today. We should do what the Apostles did. They formed small communities of new believing families that worshipped God without seminary-trained pastors or institutions of any kind. God is truly patient and will bless and reward our every effort to restore this faithful form of worship.
A Christian World
What in the world is going on? Has everyone lost his mind? Or is it just the media that has gone berserk? It probably began with the media and spread widely from there. God’s people are for the most part ignorant of God’s Word and God’s Commandments. They have been duped by Satan, the father of lies. He did his evil work through the use of an evil book known as the Scofield Bible. It consists of an ordinary King James Bible that has been “improved” by the addition of Satan’s study notes. The principles underlying these notes were devised by J, N. Darby, another agent of Satan and the mentor of Scofield. This book of lies is the original source of almost all the evil we face in the world today. It twists God’s Word to make it say what is often the opposite of what it truly says. It has deceived many of God’s people leading them to believe that God actually changes His mind. It says He decided to end the world without keeping His original promise to His Son, a world that believes in Him. The latest polls seem to say that God’s people have abandoned the hope of ever seeing a Christian world. Too many of them are ready to settle for far less than God commanded. God changed His mind they say; He no longer expects us to make this world a Christian world prior to Christ’s return.
God, though, never changes in any way whatever. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever (Hebrews 13:8). He sees the end from the beginning. He sees the world that will be visible to us, His so very limited creatures, one day. It is a world that trusts. believes and obeys God.
How, you may ask is this to be realized? Very simply, it is through the obedience of God’s people. All that is needed is for a few to begin to obey the Great Commission:
“And Jesus came and spake unto them, saying, All power is given unto me in heaven and in earth. Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen.” (Matthew 28: 18-20)
Obedience to this extremely simple message is all that is needed to totally transform the world. When God’s people just begin to convey the Gospel message, it could spread with great rapidity through the many existing social media channels. All that is needed is a start, just a little push, and the floodgates would be opened.
Why not let it start with you? God will bless those that make an effort and take a step of faith.
Responsibility
We all have responsibilities. Children must obey their parents. Women must obey their husbands and all must obey God. We all are responsible in various ways but our responsibility to obey God is foremost. How many though, neglect this the greatest of all responsibilities? Many claim to be God-fearing Christians but fail to obey God’s commandments in many ways every day?
Every person that ever lived in this world, Jesus excepted, was born and lived as a sinner. Some have been born-again and are forgiven but still they sin. Sin, disobedience to God’s commandments, is a universal fault. All have sinned and come short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23).
This legacy of sin and death that we all share began with Adam, the first man. When he disobeyed God and ate the forbidden fruit he and all his descendants, the whole world population, were condemned to death with him. We live a few years then die and spend eternity in Hell. All this is because our original parents disobeyed God and God sees us all in him. He sees us, though, as the sinners, we are from birth. We are born sinners and continue to sin all our lives.
God, though, is a merciful God. He saw our plight, our entire inability to help ourselves and made a great personal sacrifice for us. He sent His Son, His only begotten Son, to become a man and bear the penalty of the sins Adam and all his descendants committed and continue to commit every day. He the sinless One became a man and pays the penalty of death for Adam’s sinful children. Why, why did He need to die? It is because God is truth and cannot lie. He could not just wave His hand and declare just that which is unjust. The innocent One had to die to pay the penalty of all the guilty that truly believe in Him and truly repent of their sins. God the Son who lowered Himself, was born of a woman and lived a sinless life, died for all that really and truly believe, just believe! in Him.
This was not something He did here to then just return to heaven and be what He was before. No, it was a permanent change. He gave up equality with the Father to become one of His own creatures. The Creator of all things took on Himself the nature of the creatures He created. He gave up His right to continue as an Infinite Being to save some of His sinful creatures from eternal death in Hell.
Why? Why? you may ask, did He give up so much for His wicked creatures? It is because God is love. Love for others is at the root of His character and it is His nature to respond just as He did. Yes, we as Satan’s possession, were entirely unable to help ourselves. We couldn’t even see that we were captives and in mortal danger of eternal death. Jesus saw our plight and responded in character.
What then is our response to this huge sacrifice? Do we just say thank you God for this great gift and go on with life as usual? Do we simply ignore His request to spread this message of salvation to everyone we can and go on with life as usual? Do we utterly give up the goal He gave us to work toward, the goal of making this world a Christian world? Is that no longer possible? Did God change His mind? Does He ever change His mind? No, He never does because He never needs to. The lie that says God changed His mind comes from the pit of Hell, from Satan himself and from his book, the Scofield Bible.
Many of God’s people, due to their abysmal ignorance of God’s true Word, were susceptible to Satan’s lies in this so-called Bible. It is a true Bible that has been polluted by Scofield’s poisoned notes. It should be labeled as Spiritual Poison for that is what it truly is.
The Problem
The world is in trouble and where is God? Has He forgotten His people or have they forgotten Him? He never forgets anything, so it must be our fault. Yes, God’s people have forgotten God. It’s not the first time, weve done it often before. God’s people today are not too different from the Jews of antiquity who often forgot the One that protected and preserved them from certain extinction, so many times.
So, it is not God that forgets us but we His people that forget Him, over and over again. Why? Why do we keep doing this? Why can’t we stay on course? Why do we keep falling away? It is because we fail to maintain our connection to our Lord. When things go well with us we all too often drift away and forget the God that made it so.
We today are very much like those ancient Jews. When things get bad, we turn to God. When all seems well, we forget the One that made it so and go our own way. What is it that keeps us in this yo-yo kind of existence? Why can’t we learn to stay with God and fix the problem once and for all?
It is because we are the problem! It is our own sinful nature, the nature we were born with, that draws us away from the self-discipline God requires of us. We are all children of Adam and like him are susceptible to the lure of sin. Satan sees our weakness and lures us away from the study of God’s Word. He tells us that the Sunday sermon is enough. “There’s no need to study God’s Word on your own. There are so many other pleasant ways to spend an evening. There’s no need for such rigid discipline, no need for study and discussion of the Sunday sermon with others, we keep saying to ourselves. You went to church and paid good attention, that’s quite enough for a serious Christian like you.” How many true believers fall into this trap?
The true church saw its most rapid growth in the first two centuries of its history. There were no physical churches then. The apostles and their successors were itinerant ministers that moved from city to city. God’s people were on their own most of the time. They lived in small groups of godly families and studied God’s Word together whenever they could.
God’s Word, the word the apostles gave them was seen as a precious commodity. It was copied over and over again and circulated widely among the many groups of believers. God’s people had God’s Word jn their hands. They treasured it and studied it diligently.
Yes, those early believers truly believed. They changed the world they lived in. Pagan Rome became Christian Rome but it wasn’t all just good news. The godly communities were no longer persecuted and it became popular to belong to one. There were very significant advantages. Members in need of anything were assisted by the community.
These highly attractive communities grew both in number and in size. Both believers and unbelievers were attracted to them and they gradually lost their earlier purity. In time, Rome became Christian Rome but it was a Christianity that lacked much of its earlier character. What were small groups of serious, born-again believers became larger groups consisting of both true and false believers.
This failure to maintain true purity has plagued Christianity throughout the Christian era. It stems from a false idea, a desire to help the unbeliever by drawing him closer rather than waiting for God to change his heart. It is exactly the wrong thing to do. It hurts rather than helps him and does damage to the community as a whole.
A Trip to Mars
Veni, Vidi, Vici. We went, we saw but there was nothing there to conquer. Mars was only a barren waste, not to be compared with mother Earth. Here we see thousands of life forms and there none, none whatever, not even the simplest microscopic life form. Why so? Why so much life here and none whatever there? If life evolved from non-life as so many supposed wise men say, there should have been some form of life there; at least a very primitive beginning point.
Why was the absence of any trace of life such a disappointment to many? It was because many of our leading scientists hate the thought of God and hoped for some proof in support of their declared atheistic faith.
Actually, there are no true atheists in the world. Everyone knows in their heart of hearts that there is a God, a God that created them, a God whose judgement they must face one day. Their atheism is a pretense they use as a shield to hide behind. They know they are disobeying God and tremble in fear whenever life is threatened.
Why though, if they’re not true atheists, do they not fear and obey God? Why do they not repent and beg God’s forgiveness? It is because they are in Satan’s bondage and cannot even see the Kingdom of God.
God, though, is merciful and gives everyone at least one point in life where he is able to see and freely choose God. How many, though take advantage of this opportunity? Again, no one does; all, left to themselves, reject God’s free gift and choose Satan. God, of course, knew this and sent the Holy Spirit to indwell all those He previously chose. The eyes of these chosen and highly blessed individuals were opened and they gladly accepted God and life instead of Satan and death.
The world then is populated with three kinds of people: those that have already chosen God, those that will eventually choose him and those that will never choose Him. Only those that have already truly chosen God know where they stand. They recognize God only because God had already chosen them and sent the Holy Spirit to indwell them. No one chooses God on their own initiative. All are in Satan’s hands and entirely unable to do so.
In which group, dear reader, are you? Do you believe God and trust Him? Have you placed yourself in His tender, loving care? Have you surrendered your life to Him or are you still your own master, leading and directing yourself here and there without His guidance? If the latter, are you at a loss of what to do and where to go in this mad world? It is a world that has turned it’s back to God, a world that denies Him and rejects His tender, loving care.
Do you understand that we are all God’s creatures and always need His wise guidance? Satan is very real and leads many astray with his devious temptations? Has he tricked you into believing you don’t need God’s help, that you are fully able to make your own decisions? He is very good at deception and has led many self-confident people astray. We cannot resist him without God’s help with even what often seem like simple decisions.
Perhaps it’s time for you to stop trying to control your own life and instead place yourself fully in God’s care. Try it, test Him and see that His promises are true. You will be very pleased with the outcome.